Recording Masturbation Videos Made Me Orgasm Too Quickly

In my last story, I wrote about an exhibitionist period I went through where I indulged my fantasy of recording masturbation sessions and posting them online.  I remember those years fondly, and I got lots of enjoyment from this hobby.

My motivation for posting those videos was that the knowledge that other people were watching and getting turned on by my masturbation.  That turned me on.  Getting feedback on my videos made me even hornier and enhanced my already amazing masturbatory life.  I saw myself through the eyes of my appreciative viewers, and that aroused me.

I also saw the posting of those videos as an act of generosity.  My watching of amateur female solo porn from previous years added a lot to my auosexuality.  When I made those videos, I was definitely taking my exhibitionistic side into my own hands, for sure.  But I also thought of it as giving back to that world of amateur porn that inspired many a great fingering session.  If other people could have the same experience I had with the videos I saw when I was a bit younger, I was just doing my part.  Maybe other people will be inspired by seeing me and post videos of their own.  The more videos there are of ordinary people enjoying themselves, the better.

Since recording those videos was so arousing for me, I often climaxed prematurely while making them.  I've written about my problems with premature orgasm in my early teen and preteen years, a difficulty I overcame through lots of edge training begining at the age of 14, but I still slip up at times when the sexual excitement is too overwhelming.  In an earlier post, I wrote about how watching porn during masturbation did that to me.  Well, making porn during masturbation did that to me, too.  For each video I posted, there were more that got scrapped because the orgasm came almost immediately after I started recording.  It was very humiliating to me, a dedicated edger, to have these accidents.  I would have to try again another time.  One of the nice comments I got was from someone who complimented me on how good my videos were, but he wished that they were longer.  Believe me, me too.

I did keep an accidental orgasm video, because even though I would have wanted it to be longer, I thought it was acceptable enough.  That one is the video of me masturbating while leaning back against some pillows while a mirror was placed between my spread open legs.  There were two things going on then that were arousal enhancers for me, using the mirror and recording the video.  It was too much to endure.  All of a sudden, I felt my pc muscle go off like a sneeze you never anticipated until you were already sneezing.  I wanted to go for a bit longer, but I had no choice.  As soon as the climax arrived, I decided to roll with it and intensified my fingering into my hard and fast finishing stroke.  In normal cases, my finishing stroke precedes the beginning of the orgasm by a few seconds rather than following it after it has already started.  But this was not a normal session for me.