Struggling with sexuality. Trans women, LGBT, sexual frustration.

[fml666]

I'm sexually frustrated and lonely. I never had a girlfriend only a handful of sexual experiences. I don't have a close friend group right now and I never "talk to girls". When I tried to talk to girls they are not interested. I rate myself a 6, I am tall and in good shape.

I got a blowjob from a trans woman because I was desperate. I just found out I got chlamydia and I'm getting treatment for it now (thank God I didn't kiss or do anal). Besides the blowjob, I didn't like anything else from the experience. Now I'm scared to go try gay sex again.

Every so often I see trans women on campus. I want to talk to them bc I want intimacy and cuddling, but long term I don't want to be judged being with a trans woman. I don't ever want to be near an anus either. Anal sex with even a woman grosses me out.

I just feel lonely and frustrated hearing people party and being left out. My roommate (in different bedroom) has sex often and I hear it. It makes me anxious. Honestly, I want to watch (lol) but I don't want to risk asking.

I just feel deprived of intimacy. I find myself kissing and hugging my pillow a lot.

[jschwa]

I'm sexually frustrated and lonely. I never had a girlfriend only a handful of sexual experiences. I don't have a close friend group right now and I never "talk to girls". When I tried to talk to girls they are not interested. I rate myself a 6, I am tall and in good shape.

I got a blowjob from a trans woman because I was desperate. I just found out I got chlamydia and I'm getting treatment for it now (thank God I didn't kiss or do anal). Besides the blowjob, I didn't like anything else from the experience. Now I'm scared to go try gay sex again.

Every so often I see trans women on campus. I want to talk to them bc I want intimacy and cuddling, but long term I don't want to be judged being with a trans woman. I don't ever want to be near an anus either. Anal sex with even a woman grosses me out.

I just feel lonely and frustrated hearing people party and being left out. My roommate (in different bedroom) has sex often and I hear it. It makes me anxious. Honestly, I want to watch (lol) but I don't want to risk asking.

I just feel deprived of intimacy. I find myself kissing and hugging my pillow a lot.

Don't feel odd, weird or perverted because you like to have sex with trans women. These days, and I'm sure from what you can read on this and other forums, almost all types of sexual relations are becoming normal and mainstream. There are literally hundreds of posts about men wanting to suck cock or have sex with trans women because they're not getting it at home. There are hundreds of posts about men saying that once you suck a cock you'll love it and never stop. I'm sure that there are many on here about trans women too. People are becoming more and more accepting of sexual practices and relationships that were initially thought of as taboo.
Personally, I'm not into any type of anal sex or contact myself, but if I could find a beautiful trans woman with nice small, pert breasts and a 6 inch circumcised cock I would definitely suck her cock and let her suck mine. I might even see if I could get into a permanent relationship with her.
So, find a trans woman that you know is clean and safe and go for it. Unless you just want to suck a cock or get your cock sucked because that's just as risky!!!

[fml666]

Thanks for that. I feel like my case is just more of desperation because I can't get a girlfriend. I had crazy sex with an older lady who wasn't very attractive, yet, I was fully into it. We were licking, biting, kissing, I ate her out. It was dirty passionate sweaty sex and I didn't even shower after.

When I had sex with the trans woman (she was more "attractive") I felt more disgusted. Her aroma was of that of a man and that was a turn off too. After the bj I went to the bathroom to wash the saliva off. When I got home I took a shower and deeply scrubbed myself 4 times over everything. I thought that night "I wish I didn't do it".

Maybe I just have to find a relationship with a feminine man or a trans woman where we don't have sex. I don't know how to find it. My friends are homophobic and racist so that doesn't help at all. I want a close companionship in love but women don't want that unless you're the perfect man. It's messing with my head it makes me angry.

[jschwa]

Thanks for that. I feel like my case is just more of desperation because I can't get a girlfriend. I had crazy sex with an older lady who wasn't very attractive, yet, I was fully into it. We were licking, biting, kissing, I ate her out. It was dirty passionate sweaty sex and I didn't even shower after.

When I had sex with the trans woman (she was more "attractive") I felt more disgusted. Her aroma was of that of a man and that was a turn off too. After the bj I went to the bathroom to wash the saliva off. When I got home I took a shower and deeply scrubbed myself 4 times over everything. I thought that night "I wish I didn't do it".

Maybe I just have to find a relationship with a feminine man or a trans woman where we don't have sex. I don't know how to find it. My friends are homophobic and racist so that doesn't help at all. I want a close companionship in love but women don't want that unless you're the perfect man. It's messing with my head it makes me angry.

I've experienced the "not being the perfect man" syndrome too. Most of us have to face quite a bit of rejection from women over the course of our lives. I know I walked away with "my tail between my legs" many times when trying to pick up women. That's why I stayed in "not so perfect" relationship for a lot longer than I should have. The problem is that you're still horny. So, you either constantly rely on masturbation or you find another source of relief.

The problem was that I grew up in an era where being gay was abnormal, perverted and sinful. Any form of M/M contact you were considered "queer" or "homo" and ostracized by friends and family, but none the less in times of desperation I turned to men to suck my cock. Although, with me it never went any further than that. At first I was hesitant and had to be coerced and plied with alcohol. After it was over I felt guilty, ashamed and dirty. Like you, I would run home and shower. Subconsciously, I think it was to wash away the shame and guilty more than any dirt or germs. After a few occurrences it became more acceptable to me, granted it was all still on the down low. Until one fateful day. A relatively straight looking and acting guy "picked me up". He was fairly good looking. So, he shouldn't have had any problems picking up women, but for some reason he was into men. We drove to a secluded spot. When we got there he told me to recline my seat back as far as it would go and close my eyes. I timidly complied and wasn't sure what to expect next. He unzipped my pants and slowly slid them down my legs, exposing my cock in full view. He started to gently massage my balls with one hand while examining my flaccid cock with the other. He laid my cock back onto my belly and kissed and licked it lightly, right under the head. This immediately started to get me aroused. He lifted my semi hard cock, put the head between his lips and started licking and tickling the head with his tongue. It felt amazing and as my cock filled with blood and grew to it's full length it pushed the head further into his mouth. The he proceeded to slowly slide my cock in and out of his mouth, all the while making good use of his tongue on the underside of the shaft and head. He worked my cock with his talented mouth until I couldn't stand it anymore. My body tensed, my legs started to tremble, I let out a loud yell and came like I had never came before. Here was this perfectly normal man that was willing to give me one of, if not the best blowjob in my life and didn't expect anything in return. So, after that I figured that I would take the good experiences from where ever they came from and not worry about how anyone else felt.
I guess my point is that you have to get over your shame and guilt and take the good experience when and where you can get them and not worry about what anyone else thinks. You'll drive yourself crazy if you keep worrying about how everyone else feels about you and how you live your life!!!

[hairybi]

The problem was that I grew up in an era where being gay was abnormal, perverted and sinful. Any form of M/M contact you were considered "queer" or "homo" and ostracized by friends and family, but none the less in times of desperation I turned to men to suck my cock. Although, with me it never went any further than that. At first I was hesitant and had to be coerced and plied with alcohol. After it was over I felt guilty, ashamed and dirty. Like you, I would run home and shower. . .
I guess my point is that you have to get over your shame and guilt and take the good experience when and where you can get them and not worry about what anyone else thinks. You'll drive yourself crazy if you keep worrying about how everyone else feels about you and how you live your life!!!

Like Jschwa, I also would shower as soon as possible after being with a man. I suppose it was a purification ritual, thinking back, tormented by guilt. He gives the best advice you will ever hear: You will drive yourself crazy if you worry about how everyone else views you, or whether you are gay, straight, bi, or whatever. Of course, don't take unnecessary health or other risks and get counseling if needed. I can assure you that there are others just like you who are also craving intimacy, if you look around. His advice is sound, live your life as you are!!

[iamnaked]

Op your like many guys. Just super horny and don’t have the money or the body to attract attractive women.
So you settle for guys who are trans. Hey at least they got titties right ?
Chase uglier straight women, at least they are real.

[mash2014]

Sexuality is a very complex part of our lives. When I was very young a man touched me. It felt nice but I wasn't sexually developed. Fast forward a few years, I started to masturbate but I wanted to experience sex with women but no strikes. One night I was with a friend and we had been drinking, it was warm and we both took off our shirts and kept just talking. He took off his pants and I opened my pants. Suddenly I felt his hand touching my cock and I reached out and grabbed his cock. We 69’d and we both came in each other's mouth and both swallowed. The guilt wasn't that bad but my virility got questioned. Was I gay? I tried pushing it aside and I started to fuck any woman that would cross my path. I had to prove to myself I wasn't gay. Fast forward a few years, and this time we were drinking heavily and doing drugs and I started my to get turned on. We ended up touching each other and giving the other a blow job. This time I didn't question my sexuality but I knew what I had done was not with the right person. Years later I saw a man much younger than me and I felt sexually attracted to him. I masturbated thinking of him for quite some time and then was when I realized that I knew I wasn't gay but there were occasions were men and cocks were what desired. After some time I found the term HETEROFLEXIBLE and I fit that description.
I have never considered myself a magnet man to women. I had my fair share of women but I was too shy and insecure to make moves when I really liked a specific woman.
When I joined ST, at first I read stories but one day I browsed the forum and found out that I wasn't alone. Many men love cocks, others prefer women while others prefer men, and those of us who love women but find cocks as something perfectly acceptable.
There are days when I masturbate to women but there are other days I masturbate thinking of men and cocks. There is nothing to be ashamed of if you get a trans to give you those moments of pleasure. And like many other men think, some trans can be beautiful.
Read these posts and you can find solace and understanding. You are not alone. This forum has helped many of us to accept our true sexuality.