Mum left home when I was only three. The excuse she gave (and still gives to anyone foolish enough to listen) is that she "needed her space". The reality is that she wanted to party and live her life without the responsibilities of me or marriage. She claims she "doesn't need men or want anything to do with them" but it didn't stop her cleaning dad out financially.

Still, that was years ago and dad worked his heart out to get a nice home and to take care of me. He has not had a single girlfriend in that time and I know he is lonely, and er physically lonely, if you know what I mean.

He is careful never to let it show. Only a couple of times have I noticed a semi hard on in his pants, but he is quick to hide it. It made me wonder how often he jacks off and what he thinks about.

Some nights, I lie in bed with my hand in my panties imagining him standing up (hmmm. WHY standing up? I guess men masturbate lying down too?) and arching his back to make his cock stick out further before blowing a long rope of cum out. Usually, when I get to this point, I have cum in my panties myself.

I decided that, if possible, I wanted to see it. So I did something that I am really ashamed of. (Well, LESS ashamed since I saw what I saw) I hold an Msc in electronics and specialise in surveillance so it was easy to put a small device in the bathroom. I figured dad would do it in there. When he went for a bath last week, I figured I would eavesdrop. At least I would see him naked and maybe masturbating.

At first, he ran the bath and then started to touch himself. (As did I!!!) He soon had a really REALLY impressive boner on and I figured he was going to go all the way. He sure looked like it. But then he stopped. He went to the laundry hamper and took out my panties from the day before. Then he smelled them and carried on jacking. He didn't lick them or do anything else, he just smelled my pussy on them until he came and at the moment he shot he held them in front and cummed right into the crotch.

Well, I was wetter than I have been in my life. I was going to jill to a lovely cum, but then I thought.. why not? So I waited until he was out of the bathroom and I went in, locked the door. (I could smell sperm) and I took my panties out. They were slick and wet with him and I stood there jilling with my own panties in my hand. At the moment I cummed, I rubbed them across my face.

Now, I lie in bed at night aching to go to him. I have no idea what I would do. Maybe just cuddle up, but maybe I would have no problem in jacking him off. I know for a fact I would like him to do me in return.

Would I go all the way... I don't know. I REALLY don't know. But he has given up so much all these years, and we all have desires, right?